The reality of Post-Competition Depression

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The alarm would go off at 5:40 am.

I'd roll out of bed, put on my swimsuit, and drag my UGG boots across campus to jump into a steaming pool with 30 other girls.

Training. School. Rehab. Training. Weights. School.

That was life as I knew it. Until one day, it suddenly stopped.

The alarm would now go off at 7:00 am, and instead of hitting the pool deck, it was off to the office. It felt like getting hit by a bus in slow motion, you know it’s coming but you’re unable to brace for impact.

At first, a flood of relief hit once my career as an athlete ended. I could finally be a normal person. To me that meant meeting new people, going to parties on a Wednesday without the stress of training in the morning, and perhaps, having a real relationship with someone. …


Turn the mundane into the imaginary.

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When you were a little kid, you’ de rush out of the schoolroom doors..run home, and be ready to play.

Sometimes this would be make-believe games with dolls or imaginary friends, sometimes it would be building something like a lego set that your dog would eventually step on, or perhaps it would be spent drawing coloring, or writing. Regardless of the activity, you couldn't wait to do something fun each day.

The problem is, most of us no longer do that. We forget along the way to have fun with ourselves. We lose touch with our playful side and become these adults who embrace serious activities with serious goals. We no longer spend our free time in a state of play. …


Its Time To Decide If You Are Indecisive

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Would you like regular, soy, oat, lactose-free, or almond milk?

How would you like your nails, round or square?

Are you going to marry Brian or…?

Did you know that every day you make an average of 35,000 decisions?

That is nearly 1,500 decisions every hour. Clearly, our days are FILLED with choices…from what to wear, to whether to pick up your phone or not, to how to drive to a new place, all the while deciding what to say back to someone in a conversation.

For someone who suffers from indecision…this creates one really challenging day.

It’s overwhelming, a decision faces you and suddenly you can’t feel anything…like a deer in headlights, you become unsure of how to escape the never-ending moment staring you down. …


Not all workouts are created equal

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I walked out the door and smiled at everyone I met. I laughed at the dad jokes the barista receipted while I paid for my coffee. I told myself I was okay.

But the saying stays true: “you never know what someone is going through.”

Depression, anxiety, panic, and stress; these are not uncommon struggles, especially in recent months. In 2020, 40% of US adults admitted to struggling with mental health and substance use. …


The life you actually want is typically one decision away

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What’s your biggest fear?

Most often, if you ask someone this, their answer is something like…heights, or drowning beneath a ring of fire, or having a snake crawl out of a toilet and bite your butt.

While these are all justifiably frightening, my greatest fear has always been living an ordinary life. The terror of settling for something that isn’t everything I want shoots shivers down my spine and sends me into a thought pattern of negativity.

At one point, I was on the cusp of settling for a career that was safe but not fulfilling and a relationship that would be comforting, but not invigorating and bursting with excitement. It came down to a few moments where I was faced with the hard choice: to stay, or go. …


So often we spend life simply existing, but to live is the rarest thing in the world.

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Do you ever wonder what your purpose is?

If you’re anything like me, and most other Millennials, I was told I could become whatever I wanted to be when I grew up. When I was a kid, to me, that meant being a gas station attendant. No joke, all I wanted was to serve people and talk to them all day long…this was my dream.

As you can imagine, this wasn’t exactly a “career path” my parents were too stoked to support and I was encouraged to find other passions, ones without the constant smell of toxic fuems. …


It isn’t always about waking up early and being organized.

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At this point, we all know that successful people wake up early, eat breakfast and have an organized schedule.

While these are all true tips and helpful insight into the lives of the elite, there is so much more to gaining success than meets the eye. It's often what isn’t seen, or easily listed, that can be the hardest to attain, yet the most powerful to use.

This got me thinking about what the deeper success habits of powerful people are, and how can we embody them in our daily life.

Like you, I am working towards growth, striving to be the best version of myself and to experience life to the fullest. As a result, I want to know every drop of information on how to get there. …


In a world that is starved for connection, telling stories is the best way to heal.

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Storytelling is a powerful tool for connection. Photo by Helena Lopes on Unsplash

Everyone has a story to tell.

Some people tell them. Some people hold them inside. And some people, if they are like my mother, struggle to get past the first sentence without forgetting someone’s name or repeating themselves over and over.

Then, there are storytellers. The people who tell a tale with such vivid description, emotion, and energy it feels as though you are right there experiencing everything for the first time. You gravitate towards them, and they light up as each word leaves their lips.

Not only are they great at telling a tale, but according to research, they are also happier, healthier and more successful. …


5 women share their stories of healing and stepping into a brighter future.

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She was different. There was this energy that drew me in, an authentic joy that overflowed all around her, and a presence that everyone wanted to be close to.

Ever seen a woman like this? I have. And it wasn’t until I met this wonderful person that reality struck. I was so far off from being who I wanted to be. This was the energy and the presence I wanted to embody.

But how did she get there? And why wasn’t I there, yet?

It would be easy to assume this woman had a perfect life, an easy path to become so….magnetic and strong. But she didn’t, and the more we spoke, the more I learned how similar some of our experiences were, especially the hard ones. …


Throughout the journey of healing, strength reveals itself in many forms.

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Trigger Warning: this article contains a discussion of sexual assault that may not be suitable for all readers. Fearless community, please read with care.

“Why didn’t you report him? How can you sleep at night knowing he is still out there?”

My boyfriend sat at the table across from me not understanding why I hadn’t publically done anything about my sexual assault.

A strong heartbeat swept through my chest and the too-familiar knot in my stomach returned. …

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Kirsten Trammell

Sharing inspiring stories of change so that people find freedom in their lives. blog: kirstentrammell.com

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